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It has been close to 15 years since my 3rd abortion. Somehow someway 12 years ago I met a good and loving man, we now have 2 beautiful children. I have began going to church and have been studying the bible in depth, I feel sick to my stomach and the actions of my past make me feel unworthy of God's forgiveness, I have no excuses I simply chose to end each pregnancy. I pray God will continue to bless our family knowing I will raise these children for his glory and to spread his word.
I became pregnant at 26, right after a finished grad school. It was an obvious mistake, and I did not find out until 4 weeks later. Because I was unaware of the pregnancy, my partying and drinking habits had not changed. The amount of alcohol I ingested in the first 3 weeks of pregnancy was surely enough to kill the fetus. I was not financially fit to raise a child, and the damages to the developing embryo were probably so extensive that I would not have been able to carry the baby to term. I chose to have the abortion, to save my child a life of misery, and suffering. I KNOW my child is in heaven now. I chose a better life for him.
I had 2 abortions. I was 33 and had been seeing this guy for about 3 months, I was scared and confused, I never told him what I had done. Shortly after I broke up with him, we got back together and married a few months later. We bought a home, we had 3 kids between us. I became pregnant again, when I told him he went and got drunk and didn't come home until later that night. I chose again to have an abortion, I was confused and scared. I had no one to talk to. I wished so badly I would of had someone to call, anyone. I carry this guilt around with me every single day. I love children and just cannot believe what I done. It was like God was giving me a second chance to make it right and I did wrong again. I am in so much pain from guilt I can't sleep at night, I cry every night and of course I once again left the man I truley loved after all of this. Please pray for me, I cannot seem to move on and find peace nor forgive myself. The guilt is taking me day by day.